Hello all! Hmm. I don't know how to start off so, I suppose I can retell this in order. orz:

A freaking year has passed, and all the drama still follows me around! One of my best friends told me that my ex still likes me, and supposedly wants me back. Total fucking bullshit. Honestly, if he cared about me, even a little, he would stop talking shit about his "bitchy" girlfriend, break up with her if he "loves" me and he would have been there for me when I felt like shit the past month. I see him every other day, and we don't speak, not even cross eyes. Nothing. Thus; he doesn't have the right to go on saying all this crazy stuff behind my back. ARGH

Now, some good news <3 the thursday before good friday, I watched a movie with a friend. I never thought of him other than a friend, but... we kissed. It just happened, out of nowhere. It's ironic, since I was talking about the former problem with my french teacher and told her that I didn't want a boyfriend, that I was so damn scared to let my heart be played again, and this happens! Either way, I enjoy spending time with him, I love talking to him, seeing him. He makes me forget everything else, and just be happy. Truly happy.

Bad news: the next day, my uncle had a heart attack. He was in intensive care for 2 weeks, then released to normal floor for a week. Apparently it was a very bad one and he almost died, the docs told my aunt that it most likely happened because of stress. Which makes sense, he was fired from his job years ago, and he's been jumping from part time jobs. Money is always a problem, that can stress a guy out really bad, and surprisingly enough, my uncle is such a calmed-easy-going person. I couldn't believe it, I felt so depressed I couldn't even think about my upcoming standardized testing. I just wanted to cry all day. He's not technically my uncle since we're not blood related, but I've known him since I can remember that calling him "sir" just seems stupid. Calling my aunt "ma'am" is useless and shows that she's not part of our lives. Anyways, he was released and now he's back home, just a little delicate.

I really think that my dad hasn't stop smoking. He's been giving excuses that he "forgot something on the car" and he has to go get it just to come back empty handed. Who is he kidding? All it makes me think is that he doesn't care about his health, that he doesn't care if he dies today or in 30 years. It's frustrating. Did he forgot that one of our family members died because of a cancer caused by smoking?

Oh sweet lord, AP exams. great. I will be taking an exam on french 4 when I'm currently taking french 3. I've stressed so much about this, I am going to explode. The test is on Monday at noon. The only one that has actually calmed me is... well... him. I don't know if I can write an essay in french...

My other AP exam is English, I'm not as worried about this one. I just don't want to write three freaking essays in three freaking hours. It's just too much for me to handle.So much stuff on my head I just want to lie down and.. stare at the sky. Do nothing, think about nothing, feel nothing. OR be with him <3

It's crazy, I can still feel his lips, his heart beating. I can still hear him breathing so close to me, and him whispering to my ear. God, I sound like I'm in love with him... and who knows, maybe I am falling in love.


HA! congrats if you read all that xD AND that is mostly why I haven't been uploading anything. Don't have the time. BYEZ and have a wonderful day. : D